I hesitate to write this because it is intensely personal and very hard for me to share, but I feel like I should…
Some of you may know that this has been National Infertility Awareness Week. For some reason or another, I’ve found that most people who are dealing with infertility find it difficult to discuss. It’s a physical problem that can’t be helped…but it’s embarrassing. It’s hard to put yourself out there and admit that you have no control. Absolutely no control.
But that’s the truth. As much as we may wish for different circumstances, there’s nothing we can say or do to change the circumstances we are currently in.
This is something that Justin and I deal with on a daily, weekly, monthly, yearly basis. And it’s hard. It’s harder than you could imagine. I couldn’t begin to tell you how many nights have been spent crying and begging God to change our situation.
As of yet, He hasn’t. And that’s okay. Some days, it doesn’t feel okay….but it is.
See, the reason I can say that it’s okay is because I’m aware that this trial, storm, season…whatever you want to call it…isn’t for nothing, and we aren’t left to face it alone.
I had a lady I love very much tell me that whatever situation we find ourselves in is the way that God has chosen to get the most glory to Himself. Otherwise, He would be doing things differently. Woah. When I think of things in that way, it makes it easier.
Don’t get me wrong. It’s not easy. But it’s easier.
My ideas of how I think things should be are obviously not how God wants them to be, but just because things aren’t happening according to my plan doesn’t mean that they aren’t happening according to His plan. He has a plan, and it’s perfect…even if I don’t understand it.
Though I may not see it, there’s a reason for the fact that we aren’t parents. God knows all about it and it’s in His hands. He can change it if He sees fit….and if He doesn’t, He is still good.
We should praise God for the blessings of this life –all the things He has given us, our health, our home, etc.– but what happens if that all gets taken away?
What if the things we desire most in this world are withheld from us?
What if we never get the children we want so desperately?
Do we give up?
Stop serving Him?
Stop thanking Him?
Of course not.
We can still praise God for who He is, even if we can’t praise Him for what He does.
He will always be good and will always do right. Always.
This chorus says it all:
“When God has another plan, walk on and just say, ‘Yes.’ When God has another plan, be assured that He knows best. When all your dreams are shattered, rest in His sufficient grace. You don’t have to understand, when God has another plan.”
Whatever you may be facing, please be encouraged. God knows what He’s doing.